I'm still not sleeping, and I'm getting a bit worried. I need to sleep, since I slept almost nothing last night as well. Besides, I have to visit my grandmother and her side of the family today, and then go to work directly afterwards. I'm not thrilled. This is another reason that I need sleep. I have to leave home at 11PM, and iI'm getting home at around 18. Which means 7 consecutive hours of me being sociable and smiling at people who don't remember me and don't care either. Anyway; I need sleep.
If I manage to stay awake the whole time I'm away from home tomorrow, it's a miracle. I might fall asleep in the car, but I guess I'll make due.
Midnight hugs :*

I won't be able to sleep tonight again. I haven't told anyone in my family about my sleeping problems. I think I'll have to tell them soon if it doesn't stop. I really don't like not sleeping anymore, and I don't know why I can't sleep. I'm tired, and still.. Can't sleep
Also, I went on a walk today. I love winter weather and especially the freshness of the air.. I have to get out more often, as soon as the blisters heal :/

I just came back from taking a walk in the snow. 3 kilometres in broad daylight is quite the accomplishment for me. 3 people said hi to me, and I only freaked out once ^^ I think that's progress..?
I also took the time to take some pictures of this amazing weather, since the sun started to go down just as I had walked half my distance.. Here's one of many pictures ;)

"It's Christmas time and Santa's here, making the children smile, but he's just a pedophile, so you better watch your child."
Anyways, happy holidays! I'm extremely happy today, for once. And I can't wait until Christmas dinner, which is strange. I rarely look forward to eating stuff... Anyway; have a fabtastic Christmas ^^
Old pic of me from September :3

.. home from seeing the neighbours. I love meeting with them around Christmas time, because we never stay too long, just as long as I can manage to keep myself together. I also got to tell them more about Christoffer, they've always been very interested in my boyfriends.
Now I'm going to bake som gingerbread cookies to get even more holiday spirit into this house ^^
The pictures are from my neighbour's house (:

Today's the final day before Christmas and I couldn't be more miserable than I am right now. Christoffer and I are having some kind of argument, and I honestly can't stop crying. To make matters worse, everyone is superstressed here at home, since nothing is even close to done, and my mom is yelling at everyone, including me. It's not my fault that no one else has done anything to help her out! I've been busy with school and work, and I don't know if she knows it, but having a job at the same time you're going through high school, is kind of hard. Working takes a lot of time and even more energy, and school takes a lot of energy and even more time. I can't understand why everyone can't acknowledge how stressed I am and give me some time to fucking rest. It feels like I never accomplish anything, and yet work all the damn time. Somebody give me a hug..